Ugh....

I am hungry.

Just have to keep telling myself, five more weeks.

Five more weeks and I can graduate up soft foods.

and....

while I'm happy that feeling is slowly returning to the right side of my face, it's DAMN irritating when it itches and I can't scratch it because I can't feel it.

Meh...

Okay a RL post. What a novelty right? Seems I only do those here because I know anyone who bothers to even read this blog won't leave any comments or probably will not know what I'm even talking about.

Anyhoo it's Mother's day and I am worn out. Traveling to my mother's and visiting with her, then having lunch with the boys wore me out. I know a great deal has to do with the little to no protein in my current diet so I am going to go shopping for a non milk based protein additive and see if that won't give me a bit more boost this week.

My Mother's Day dinner was cream of chicken soup and a grilled cheese sandwich which I could only eat after making sure to thoroughly soak the sandwich in my soup so I could basically slurp it. Hey it's flavor right now and more substance than just broth. Mean while the rest of the family had steak and potatoes. Nice. :(

While I'm thrilled my procedure has (hopefully) fixed my TMD woes, I still have six more weeks of this no chew diet. Face it, just after two weeks I am sick of 'cream' soups, yoghurts, applesauce, puddings, jello, cream of wheat and broths. Although the ice cream I had last week was very good, I just have to remember not to have chocolate chip again. Plain flavored ice cream from now on. Plus mashing and/or turning "regular" food to mush in the blender is just completely unappetizing and it doesn't do the job 100% and I still end up picking out the tiny bits of food because I simply can't chew even if I wanted too.

So on the positive note, the incision site on my ear is almost already non existent. If you don't know what to look for, you don't see it which is really nice. Wish the same could be said for the incision on my stomach. It looks crappy and tonight it feels hot and it's swollen; but the good news, at least the drainage has stopped. No more bandages to be changed.

So while the procedure was TOTALLY worth getting rid of the TMJ pain, the recovery sucks and in part why I'm writing this here and not Livejournal because I'm tired of folks telling me to keep a positive outlook. I'd have an even more positive outlook if I could, you know, eat some real food instead of only cooking it and watching everyone else around me eat and not have six more weeks of this to look forwards too; and even then after six weeks, it's still a soft food diet.

Most people get cranky when they don't get to eat lunch on time and wonder why I get cranky these days. It's hard not to get prissy when your hungry all the time and can't do shit about it and have to appear to be 'happy' and 'positive' so the people around you won't feel guilty about the fact I can't eat and they can.

*takes breath*


Ah well. I'll shut up now. I got this out of my system and I feel a bit better.

Clearly I Rock!

I got feedback on a story I did!



Okay so it was a story I wrote over THREE YEARS ago but it means it's still being read!

Yeahhhhh baby - I GOT FEEDBACK and Underworld Rules!!!! :D

Third times a charm

One: The house was broken into.

Two: My back gave out.

Three: I just got rear ended tonight on the way home.

But I had a great time in Las Vegas! And I would just about anything to be able to Creed again concert.

so the power of three is done, time for the good to start happening, like oh sayyyyy winning the power ball! I would find something to do with One Hundred and Ninety Million! *nods*

I have had better days

I had a troubling dream actually to start things off today. I dreamt I traveled all the way to Greece to see my friend, even managing to ride the train and taxis by myself without getting lost only to have my friend turn me away. It was very troubling and had me feeling depressed when I woke up and I've been this way all day now.

Then I get to work to find the stationary order I placed four weeks ago never reached the supplier - so guess what?! We're just about out of office stationary - BUT I talked to the folks who make our stationary and they're going to do a rush job so we *SHOULD* have it within in a week's time. Let's hope it's less than a week and we don't run out before hand.

Then I got in the mail a bill for my sleep study. Rat bastards. I've already paid my deductible. I'm not paying another two fifty. AND WHAT WASN'T in the mail were the claim forms from our insurance people so we can start getting back the electronics that were stolen from our home last week. So we called, it'll take a bout a week before we get the paper work and at LEAST another two weeks for them to be approved.

Nice. How much money have we forked over for their services these last nineteen years and this is how we're treated. Hurry up and wait. Uh huh, you know the stink the insurance folks would raise if we were late on payment. Guess it doesn't work the other way around.

I am still lamenting the loss of our camera with Dame's pictures in it. Of all the items stolen, that was the worse.

Okay I'll stop whining and post a few pretty things to keep my spirits up.







I could use a nap.

That makes two times

That I've had to Systems Restart our desktop computer. Seriously you moronic hackers, just quit it.



Because it takes too long to set the computer back up the way it was and all because it gives you hackers some sort sense of twisted accomplishment.

I'm tired so am gonna fold the laundry and go to bed.