So one of my younger friends is going through a bought of heart ache. I can understand this and I thought I could avoid being sucked in, but I can't. I want to ask all the same questions she is and has been doing for the last week. I understand her breaking heart. I feel jipped I can't ask and have an answer.
Because I want to know why as well.
I want to know why I was such a horrible person that I was left without so much as a good bye.
I want to know why you left thinking it wouldn't matter or that you wouldn't be missed, because it does and you are.
I want to know why I keep thinking of you and knowing you probably don't give me a second thought.
I don't want to give up but it really hurts too much to keep trying and I fear I'd be too angry if you did come back.
I feel so lonely at times that I hate everyone. How pathetic is it I felt needed half a world away and now that is slowly dissolved and is almost dissipated.
It's easy for other folks to tell you, it's not you it's them but it sure doesn't feel that way.
I must be the worst person to be around that friends leave me no matter what.
